ok let me tell you of the beggining of a little hope

this is the start of my journey.....

yesterday at around 2am uk time i was feeling anxious a little aggresive and thougt it would be better to go out get some fresh air some Peace well i went for a walk..

see i live on top of a great park around 3 miles squared huge nature reserve

beautiful

well i dont know why but i thought ide take the camera well about 10 mins int the park totally dark well i sat and relaxed a while and all of a suddon i came over gossebumply so i stood up and took 2 steps i felt a whir feeling and grabbed my cam opened the lens and shot below pics all i can say is you decide what you think im going to animate this aswell so you get a time frame for it ok

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now i dont know about you but during this i felt good but this is just the start of my journey

see today i went to the docs with help from a friend "STEVE,And LARRIANNE"

to name a few and well i got there and saw my doctor well to say the least he heard me this time....

he also witnessed one of my syncopal attacks he instantly put me down as a manic depresser....

not good to be But it will give me the help i need i have been told to up my meds to 2x20 a day and hes looking @ upping again ....

The good point of this is i am going to get help finally "HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAY"

sorry you dont know the weight thats about to be released i may never be free but the weight will surely be gone :-)

this was the door to my journey now ill show you my firsst step i went home took my meds fell asleep and at 5 i awoke 2 a thunderstorm well after 10 mins it started clearing and i looked and the sky was blue well i witnessed something that i cannot explain ill show you 2 pics you decide what you see the rest was sent for me sotrry cant show rest

So after starting a new journey i found my first step ..

this in turn gave me the strength to do whayt needed to be done

deal with dad he got told today the truth mum wants to sell he just wants her to die me im not gonna let it happen no way

so i told him its simple sign amicably to the sale and get 50P or mum goes and gets a lawer and theyll force sale at ayuction and theyll get about 35/35

he wants to cut his nose of i dont care anymore he is my biological father but he has never been a good dad....

so today was a GREAT DAY....

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